Stop the self-hate?

The thought flitted across my mind today that "it doesn't matter what I do diet-wise as long as I don't hate myself any more." I contemplated embarking on a serious endeavor to change my ways and stop the internal beat-downs I give myself on an hourly basis. But then I realized that self-hate is one of the most valuable tools I have in my motivational arsenal. Don't think I can give that up any time soon...