still sick, still on low carb

That's really all I have to report. Sniffing and coughing and I feel like a truck ran over me (not that I have actually been run over, but you get the idea.) Just going downstairs to get a drink is enough to make me need a nap.

I am feeling proud of myself, though. Always before when I got sick, I ended up throwing the low carb thing out the window. This time I am choosing to embrace the illness as a time to cleans and justifiably not eat. (Not that my husband cares if I am eating or not, but that is a subject for another day when my brain is firing on all cylinders and my wrists are not screaming as I type.)

We are hosting game night tomorrow evening and I had planned to spend the weekend cleaning like a banshee. Well, fuck that. To sick, to tired. These are my friends and they have all seen the place looking worse than it does right now so I say screw it. I'm gonna take a nap.

(And you can bet your asses that I will be "too sick to eat" tomorrow night, whether I am recovered or not. I plan to be too sick to eat for as long as I can milk it.)

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So, I jump full-force onto the low carb bandwagon and wake up the next day with a horrific cold. Shee-it. But I'm hanging tough. Just broth and tea for me today. (And a few pork rinds and half an avocado. Girl's gotta have nourishment.)

My shipment of shoes arrived, so the 2x a day workouts can now begin. Yeah...gonna get right on that. As soon as the roving body aches go away and I can walk down stairs without crying.

And I'm out of my fav caffeine source, diet soda. The hubs was supposed to go get some, but instead decided to do some friggin' home-improvement project. Geez, he has only been putting it off for around 10 years, why pick NOW when I want something to get busy? Thanks for the support.

The hunger

I am just so f**king HUNGRY!! All. The. Damn. Time.

I would like to believe this insatiability is due to the fact I am gestating an alien, but unless the alien is located in my thighs, I'm screwed.

Any help/tips/advice??

Sewing

I sewed something today. (OK I stitched some things together. No cutting or using the machine.) My fingers are sore and I am tired but I actually completed a task that makes me feel good and like I accomplished something. Go me!

And some other stuff happened, but I gotta get to bed. So, so....tired....

WTF?

The washing machine straight up ate one of my shirts today. It has holes in the front and there is no way it can now be worn for anything except yard work or painting. And, it was one of the few office-appropriate clothes I have left. Perhaps the universe is telling me to scrap the job hunt and get out there and work on my house or yard? I like it, but umm, Universe, can you please explain that to my husband?? Thanks.

Work and shit

So, first off. How can working only 10 hours a week suck up all my time? I feel nearly as frazzled and behind as when I was workin 40 hours a week. I am seriously out of shape in regards to this work-for-pay thing. I am pondering finding a full-time gig since, if I'm gonna be behind and stressed and have no time to do what I want, I might as well be making more than $100 a week doing it.

Second, the fuckin' trash company that hosed up my car is now jerkin me around. I gotta go get some paper f--in NOTARISED and send it back and THEN they will mail me a check and my car is going onto the shop on MONDAY and it took them FOREVER to get me the f--in paper so how the F--- long will it take to get the stupid check?!?!? PLUS, I still have not gotten confirmation on the rental car. These people SUCK. I'm glad they are not my trash company or I would have to drop them. F---ers!!

Oh, and the diet? That would be a total fail right now. Crap.

Feelin' the luv

First off, a big shout out to K at Skinny (sorry, I don't know how to add links and I'm too lazy right now to figure it out) for the endorsement. I love her blog, too. Smoochy, smooch, sending internet luv your way K!

Ok, on with the show. I finally went grocery shopping today and bought food. I had been holding out for a few weeks to get the fridge and pantry cleaned out. We now have no rice, pasta, or potatoes in the house and I plan to keep it that way as long as possible. I got salad stuff and other low-carb staples, plus a bunch of crap food (chocolate bars, chips, etc.) for my hubby. Oh, and I did buy a mini-cake 'cuz today is our 2-month anniversary, and it was on sale. A girl needs a last hurrah, right?

So, starting tomorrow, I'm really gonna get my act together. It has been 2 months since the wedding and I have gained about 12lbs and am barely squeezing into my jeans. Starting tommorow its low-carb for as long as I can do it, then carb rotation (2 low-carb days and 1 high day) until I "find half" and reach my goal. I'm also gonna get back to the 2x daily workouts and water drinking. I need some new workout shoes really badly, so I can't do the 2-a-days until I get that issue taken care of. (You only have 2 knees, and life's a bitch if you blow them out.)

Since I'm feeling nostalgic, I'm gonna post some pics of me from the wedding. Please be kind. I was 138 in these pics and my goal weight at the time was 135. Now, after evaluating how I looked, I have decided on a new goal weight of 119.





I gotta go walk the dog and wash dishes as hubby invited people over later. I would like to just sit on the couch and blog all night, but I gotta be social.